Fourth, Frets, Future

Frets

I hate to admit it, but at times, I can be a worrier and when faced with tough decisions, I internally freak out at times.

This particular instance is no exception. I am currently faced with a really tough decision. Do I choose a path that will boost my future career opportunities with the status that my job title will receive or do I keep taking on more complicated tasks, build connections to other divisions, complete current projects, and maintain an environment where I work with people I trust and where I feel no boundaries to expressing my insights.

The problem, both are right. But, the first, it gives me a leg up to making the second possible for longer. That means, the first should be the right decision. Logically, I know this. Emotionally, I want to choose the second so badly.

Needless to say, I'm fretting and heartbroken over the repercussions of choosing the first.

Less chance to see friends, means more distance, means, well, I'd rather not think about that.

Fourth

SF's fireworks were definitely the most spectacular I've seen. Two shows that were synched with some really neat effects. They had these need whirly ones that look like they were shot off from a pinwheel or something. There were also smiley faces, hearts, cubes, and fireworks that exploded and then moved in circles really fast and all kinds of neat stuff.

Also had the best vantage point I could ask for. Getting up was a bit terrifying, but it was definitely worth it. The fact that there were very few people, no traffic, and no one blocking the view (except for the thousands of seabirds that took flight after the first explosion) made it the best seat I could have asked for. Also, my company was superb.

Future

I thought I had something to say here, but now I cannot remember it. I do know this much though, the last few weeks have evoked a sense of hope into my future endeavors. I made the last payment yesterday and now have access to all of my transcripts. I am nearly enrolled in my Bachelor's program, and I have a general direction to travel...let's see what happens. In other words, there will probably be a lot of fretting in my future.

Now, to tackle re-writing that resume.

Art and Fairs and Gifts

Fair
This weekend commenced with a journey to the county fair. Haven't been to one of those in a few years and I do have to say, I really love this fair. Everything was spaced out so nicely and with admission came the ability to partake in a concert, really great performances by Chinese acrobats, movies, animals, rides, etc. Also had the best company one could ask for as well, which made the experience all the more wonderful.

Art
One of my favorite parts is perusing the exhibit hall and seeing the creative side of local people. It gives ideas and insights into some of the crafting that I do and also it's just enjoyable to appreciate someones take on some aspect of the world.

I've really gotten into paintings done by local artists that feature landscapes from around the area. I think a part of this is because I have a mural type thing that I wish to create at some point in my life. I want to commission someone or several someones or take classes and learn to paint pieces that feature prominent features/places/things from my life.

Murals have always fascinated me because most tend to tell a story, which is probably the inspiration for a multi-piece type of "mural" that I want to create. It wouldn't be entire walls. One, maybe two, canvasses from pivotal places or points in my lifetime that feature local places with significant things tied into the landscape.

Or maybe it would only be a mural representing the parks or...I dunno. For me I liken the idea to the reason that some get tattoos. I think the art pieces would express the same only it would be something that could be added to, various pieces could be displayed or not and it wouldn't be permanent.


Gifts
I stumbled upon the blog of someone I used to rent from and she decided to start a list. It's 1,000 gifts. Basically, the premise is to find something to write on and to just start adding things that you value as gifts in life.

The list can be an individual endeavor or collaborative. She added her gifts and also had her husband add some and noted which ones he added so in future they could look back.

I found this concept to be inspiring, so I've decided to join in and start listing the gifts that I have in life.