Hoping to take this blog somewhere exciting in the future. For now, I have so much school work that I have little time for anything and then there's work on top of that.
Right now, I'm so tired that 75% of the words that people say to me sound like: "blah" "blah" "blah"
Included in the blah blah blah is the feeling of blah. Definitely so busy I'm feeling trapped and can't figure out how to make things fun. Hoping this funk is just a product of being overly tired. Also, the adjustments of new jobs, new house, school, etc., etc. are probably a part of it too.
With that, if I'm out of sorts and just not the usual...I'm working through it, slowly. Apologies for the self-centered world I currently live in. The blog will be more interesting and so will conversations...
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Argh!
Oi. Life is stressfully frustrating as of late.
It seems like there are a couple people waiting around every corner attempting to attack me as soon as I make a simple mistake. Mistakes are learned from and I've figured out how to fess up to being wrong as best as possible.It still gets annoying to have people who refuse to trust you though. Grr...
Also, life is all busy, making me miss spending time with people. I'm quite isolated now. We have no internet, no phone reception, and former dormmates will be moving on making the homeland Headlands a lonely place to live.
I've also become too addicted to facebook statuses. It's times like these that twitter is more useful. I need to take a status update break.
Ok, back to homework. Can't wait to go to the conference next week. Although, I am absolutely terrified of meeting new people and I find networking to be exhausting and unenjoyable.
It seems like there are a couple people waiting around every corner attempting to attack me as soon as I make a simple mistake. Mistakes are learned from and I've figured out how to fess up to being wrong as best as possible.It still gets annoying to have people who refuse to trust you though. Grr...
Also, life is all busy, making me miss spending time with people. I'm quite isolated now. We have no internet, no phone reception, and former dormmates will be moving on making the homeland Headlands a lonely place to live.
I've also become too addicted to facebook statuses. It's times like these that twitter is more useful. I need to take a status update break.
Ok, back to homework. Can't wait to go to the conference next week. Although, I am absolutely terrified of meeting new people and I find networking to be exhausting and unenjoyable.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Lately
Lately,
Life has thrown me for a loop, kept me incredibly busy, and is now leaving me struggling to breathe and keep up.
I've definitely felt like I'm so stressed that I am borderline crazy. This is problematic, because being calm, cool, and collected is generally how the world operates from my point of view.
The other part of this is that the stress has totally lead my actions to be uncharacteristic of me, which then depletes self confidence, which then leads to frustration, and goes in this crazy spiraling motion of chaotic thought that I hate.
The good news, next week will be fun and is filled with an exciting opportunity to learn and remove myself from the usual environment. The crazy and stress is starting to de-escalate as homework is taken charge of and is getting accomplished.
Doesn't change some of the unfortunate work things though, but I guess I will try to take them as learning opportunities and character building chances since they are what they are and if I wish to progress in my career, I have to take hold of what is in front of me. This leaves me in an interesting and insanely challenging and sometimes unfair predicament. In the end, it will be worth it, at the moment, it comes with ups, downs, and AAAAAaaaaaRRRRgggGGGhhhHHHsssSSs.
That's all. When I actually have internet at my house, I'll write some more sometime.
Life has thrown me for a loop, kept me incredibly busy, and is now leaving me struggling to breathe and keep up.
I've definitely felt like I'm so stressed that I am borderline crazy. This is problematic, because being calm, cool, and collected is generally how the world operates from my point of view.
The other part of this is that the stress has totally lead my actions to be uncharacteristic of me, which then depletes self confidence, which then leads to frustration, and goes in this crazy spiraling motion of chaotic thought that I hate.
The good news, next week will be fun and is filled with an exciting opportunity to learn and remove myself from the usual environment. The crazy and stress is starting to de-escalate as homework is taken charge of and is getting accomplished.
Doesn't change some of the unfortunate work things though, but I guess I will try to take them as learning opportunities and character building chances since they are what they are and if I wish to progress in my career, I have to take hold of what is in front of me. This leaves me in an interesting and insanely challenging and sometimes unfair predicament. In the end, it will be worth it, at the moment, it comes with ups, downs, and AAAAAaaaaaRRRRgggGGGhhhHHHsssSSs.
That's all. When I actually have internet at my house, I'll write some more sometime.
Things I Know to Be True
Sarah Kay: If I should have a daughter ... | Video on TED.com
This blog was inspired by the above talk...
Things I know to be true...about myself
-Daydreaming is something I can't not do
-Driving places gives a sense of getting somewhere
-I use to wonder why on earth people would want to be friends with me, then I got to know myself.
-Sometimes I still wonder that, and try to remember who I am.
-I can be a little eccentric at times and a little out there at others, but I guess that is what makes me, me.
-I don't ever really get mad, only frustrated and it's normally with myself for subjecting others to hearing my frustrations.
-I get annoyed when I talk about myself and write about myself too much, because I want to know others stories, but at the same time, I never know how to connect with others without personal references.
-Asking for things is one of the most difficult for me to do.
-My indecision has lead to challenging consequences, yet, making decisions is still difficult, mostly because I want to do the write thing and don't like the social consequences of the wrong decision.
-When it comes to work and my job, I know what I want and for the most part, I can be the person I am and want to be.
-I am still working on the above in the rest of life's settings
-I have difficulty with self confidence
-It's fun to analyze the evolution of thought and personal change...which is why I write these random blogs.
-Meeting new people is tough, but learning new things is absolutely fascinating and ridiculous well received.
Now, to figure out how to turn this into a poem...
This blog was inspired by the above talk...
Things I know to be true...about myself
-Daydreaming is something I can't not do
-Driving places gives a sense of getting somewhere
-I use to wonder why on earth people would want to be friends with me, then I got to know myself.
-Sometimes I still wonder that, and try to remember who I am.
-I can be a little eccentric at times and a little out there at others, but I guess that is what makes me, me.
-I don't ever really get mad, only frustrated and it's normally with myself for subjecting others to hearing my frustrations.
-I get annoyed when I talk about myself and write about myself too much, because I want to know others stories, but at the same time, I never know how to connect with others without personal references.
-Asking for things is one of the most difficult for me to do.
-My indecision has lead to challenging consequences, yet, making decisions is still difficult, mostly because I want to do the write thing and don't like the social consequences of the wrong decision.
-When it comes to work and my job, I know what I want and for the most part, I can be the person I am and want to be.
-I am still working on the above in the rest of life's settings
-I have difficulty with self confidence
-It's fun to analyze the evolution of thought and personal change...which is why I write these random blogs.
-Meeting new people is tough, but learning new things is absolutely fascinating and ridiculous well received.
Now, to figure out how to turn this into a poem...
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